Christmas Joy

The spirit starts to jingle
Invite you to join and exclaim
Urge you to smile and shine
The day has arrived my friend

Snow keeps you accompanied
Wind slightly blows
Sun beams on the other flip
feelings inside oh so smooth

Let's be grateful
Let's cherish the joy
And welcome the blessings

Far or near, close or away
We cherish the same
"Merry Christmas!" people say
And may you always be blessed

hidden

Grabbing air in tight and struggle
I try to reach, I try to hold
Arise to the destiny
No, the reasons havent been revealed

I surrender, only to You
Missing part of me
I seem uncomplete
Seen the lights
Seen the shadows
You,
Only you who can bring me
Up and down. in this mystery

Rujak Ulek

Hati bagai rujak ulek
Campur campur
Jadi Satu

Ambil satu rasa manis
Ganti lain pahit tericip
Asam garam ikut serta
Campur campur

Bisa pilih memang bisa
Tapi tak kuasa

Mind's Wanderer

I am the mind's wanderer
Dive deep
Hunt the lights
Can't seem to find the way

Wander through fiction
Pass through the facts
Truth hasn't been revealed
Or has it?

The view seems blur
Even the scent doesn't appeal
Hear what the instinct says

I am the mind's wanderer
Who can't rove her own
And lost
Accompanied by faith

the One

i have written about sins
i have sensed lies
i have witnessed sadness
and disappointments

i have written how my heart aches
or my mind travels
my imagination hunts
my hopes fly away

i have typed how i break
when i am down
i have been feeling lonely
but that's enough

chorus:
now let me write and speak
how i am amazed of you God
the greater power
the One that keeps me breathing, breathing


bridge:
No matter how many times i break
i believe in You i believe in You
No matter how many tears I wipe
i believe in You i believe in You
the greater power
Who will reveals the reason
someday
someday

Seandainya Cinta Punya Mata

Seandainya cinta punya mata
Lihat pedih lihat perih
Lihat taburan lihat tawaran
Lihat permai lihat tawa
Apa kata cinta?

Seandainya cinta punya mata
Perih pedih
Ditelankah?
Taburan tawaran
Disambutkah?
Permai tawa
Disimpankah?

Seandainya cinta punya mata
Jatuhkah aku untukmu?

Senyum

Kalau senyum punya tutur
Kalau senyum punya nyawa
Senyum sudah tewas

Kalau senyum punya jiwa
Kalau senyum punya hasrat
Senyum sudah bunuh diri

Senyum bilang
Senyum lelah senyum hancur
Senyum bertahan

Senyum kuat
Atau kita kuat?

make me stop

2 weeks
that's what i have

2 weeks
then u r away

2 weeks
then emptyness

why i still feel the pain?
why i still have the feelings?

just
make
me
stop

loving you

i aint got you

i love u
but i aint got u

i miss u
but aint reach u

i am here
but i aint have u

i think of u
but i aint make u stay

i love u
but i aint got u

.....


for u
i made
for u
to know
the things
i aint say

randOMbaby :P

hello hello my dear blog :P
today i am not gonna post any poem or any thoughts :P sorry... :P
BUT! i am gonna share some pictures i took :P of myself :P hahaha

why? because i am feeling a bit narcissistic today :D
oh, and i just talked with a great friend of mine : ARDY
about life, love, memories, and it makes me feel glad :)

soooo... enjoy the pictures :P

-.-

how can i tell u
how can i let u know
how can i

how should i act
how should i feel
how should i

what do u feel
what do u mean
what do u see

will you ever know
will u ever know
will u

i miss you so
i miss you so
i miss you

why?

would it be nice?

here is a song by an Indonesian band named Nidji
the title is Jangan Lupakan (Dont ever forget)

ku berjalan terus tanpa henti
dan dia pun kini telah pergi
ku berdoa di tengah
indahnya dunia
ku berdoa untuk dia yang kurindukan

memohon untuk tetap tinggal
dan jangan engkau pergi lagi
berselimut di tengah dingin dunia
berselimut dengan dia yang kurindukan

would it be nice to hold you ..
would it be nice to take you home..
would it be nice to kiss you..

memohon untuk tetap tinggal
dan jangan engkau pergi lagi
bernyanyilah na na na na na
bernyanyilah untuk dia yang kurindukan

would it be nice to hold you ..
would it be nice to take you home ..
would it be nice to kiss you..

jangan pernah lupakan aku
jangan hilangkan diriku
jangan pernah lupakan aku
jangan hilangkan diriku
jangan pernah lupakan aku
jangan pergi dari aku

runs my mind

The colours of the sky
The warmth of the sun
The sooth breeze of the wind

Runs my mind
Runs my mind

Inside was harsh
Outside was calm
Inside says no
Outside says it’s ok

U tell me u care
U left me to be fair
I tell u I love you
I let u to pursue

In the shines I can dance
When dark comes I am in silence
In the light my lips make a curve
When shadow gets near I grieve

This is how it is?
Or this isn’t?
Runs my mind
Runs my mind


~ live with no excuses; love with no regrets ~

look at me

Mirror mirror on the wall
Will u listen to me?
I have sorrow to share
Story to be kept

Do u know how it feels
When u see a soothing river while u are being burned
when u can watch birds flying while u r being tied?

Hey look at me
Look at me smiling
Can’t u hear me laughing?

But why do u give me a broken look?
Why do u give me a torn face?
I want a smile, a super giant smile
So I can wash away all the pain
Just give me a smile
And everything
Should be alright


~ don't be sad for what's over; be glad because it was once yours ~

Biarlah

I chose a random playlist in youtube, and at some point i heard this song...
well well, maybe sounds cheesy but it kinda matches my love-life :P
Such a nice song though, great tune nice video ;)
below i post the lyric of the song..

Untaian kata darimu
Tak cukup waktu tuk ulangi masa2 indah yg ada
Takkan ku ragukan lagi ku suka kamu
Dan kau merasakan hal yg sama
Namun ku tak bisa melakukan ini semua
Karena kini kau telah berdua

Hapuslah cinta antara kita berdua
Karena kau sudah ada yg punya
Biarlah diriku memendam rasa ini
Jauh di lubuk hatiku

Sebuah kisah indah kita
Berlalu cepat tanpa ku sadari
Takkan ku ragukan lagi
Begitu banyak kisah kita dalam langkah kita
Ku tak bisa melakukan ini semua
Karena kini kau telah berdua

by : Soulvibe

*there's always something to be thankful for*

Centre Parc

hey! :)
so, last holiday i didnt go to Prague or Budapest; because we were too late to book everything and the prices went so high that we couldnt really afford it :S

but! we changed the plan and we went to this park called Centre Parc, in Eemhof. This park is so fun! It has complete facilities, nice cottage, and there we really could feel like in HOLIDAY. relax, fun, just like a happy family :)

the Centre Parc team was : Monica, Gian, Arnold, Rey, Alda, and Yogi. We called ourselves the happy-zoo-family :P Each of us represents an animal, which is silly but still funny :P



rey = monkey, arnold = kingkong, alda = bunny, gian = frog, monica = turtle, yogi = bear

there was a great water park, where we spent more than 2 hours sliding and swimming :P or well, learning how to swim for one of our members :P



I would like to tell you guys the story of our trip, but not in a usual story like an article, but as.. a poem (if you call it that way :P)
i hope you will enjoy reading it :)

we started blank
look out words to be sang
but we are just
going to tell you guys
a story of us

short scenes of our lives
telling bout joy and friendships
friday noon till monday dusk
in a cozy cottage behind the bushes
we treasured smiles and giggles

barbecue, cola, also smoothies
followed with poker swapping chips
only not to sleep on the bunk
Gian and Arnold were the busts
oh day one felt so fun

woke up pancakes were waiting
shall we go for canoing
wet before started or wrong direction
we just had splash like from the ocean
tired but poker was still on

open your eyes you saw the rain
the radio was on we still slept so fine
wet wet but badminton was cool
domino pizza ice cream made us full
packet team one was on a streak

oh no holiday is finished
woke up checked out but UPS
sorry sir I left my 5 friends inside
hey we are in Den Haag one had to hide
wing kee then poker and singing

hey we went back to reality
dont worry we'll still be ready
assignment project or even resit
we can do it!
we'll wait for another chance and way
to escape and go holiday!

:) :)

Just a song

hey heyyy...
this song just keeps running in my mind today, so... I'll just put the lyrics here :P

the title is "Sebatas Mimpi"

Pedih bila kuingat lagi
Janji yang pernah kita ucapkan dulu
Mengapa kini kau ubah semuanya
Tak mengerti... tak mengerti aku

Reff:
Biarkanlah cinta tak berbalas
Bila memang harus ku nikmati cinta hanya sebatas mimpi
Biar saja kasih... indah tak pernah lekang
Walau semua kini hanya sebatas mimpi

Kasih...ingatlah saat-saat mesra
Berdua selalu kita dalam cinta
Mengapa kini kau ubah semuanya
Tak mengerti... tak mengerti aku

People

hey hey :)
here is what i have written some time ago.
it was inspired by memorable things that happened in a scene of my life. The words I chose try to describe how the memory was built.
But well, I also think that the poem also matches other people's lives.

I hope you guys like it :)
the title is People

Is it true that chances come in surprising moments?
That star which is unreachable can be touched faithfully?
Is it true that feelings flow like the river?

Smile and smile
The souls are touched
The souls are floated
The souls are dared

Feel and feel
The minds are flowing
The minds are wondering
The minds are dared

Deep and deep
The bodies danced
The bodies are clung
The bodies are dared

People dared
People chose
People lived


quote of the day :
"sometimes all you can do is laugh to keep yourself from crying" ~D.S.P

Time vs Moments

Ola guys! :D how’s life on your side?

My life? It has been… okay. :P I am still capable of smiling and laughing and writing my feelings out… Yes, I have some stuffs going on in my mind but I’ll figure them out ;)

So! The topic of this post is : WAKE UP! TIME FLIES!
Why I choose this topic? Well, things in my own life have been going fast lately. Once I was enjoying a day in Paris, and suddenly it has been 2 months ago! It felt like I turned 19 a week ago, while in fact I am going to enter the 20s world in about 5 months! I still can remember the departure day in the Soekarno-Hatta airport (Indonesia) in details, and without I’m realizing it I have left home for 8 months. WOW. Ok, that’s a WOW for me. I don’t know for you guys, but I feel time flies fast. And moments keep changing to be treasured.

Yesterday I had a nice quality chit-chat time with my besties, Vini and Alda. We talked about how things going on in our life and also with others’. We heard about a great news : one of our friends is engaged! :) congratulation to youuuu! :D
Well, we are so thrilled to hear that yet at the same time agazed. She’s a bit older than me, and she’s engaged already. Another WOW for me :P It feels like : HEY WAKE UP MONICA! YOU ARE ENTERING A MATURE WORLD NOW!

It’s not the “being engaged” part that surprised us(well yes, but not totally). But it was how time flies so fast. We are now dealing with more complex problems, more responsibilities, more gambling in risks. Those things ask us to be more though, rational, and also brave. Overall, we need to be more mature. We can’t hide no more behind our parents’ backs, under the bed, or just change schools to run from things going on in our lives. We need to face them.
Ok, I am not trying to look that brave, because I am not. I am still afraid and confused of how should I deal with the new things come in my path of life. But all I know is I have to try and survive. OH! And… in my opinion, “masks” will always be part of our life. Masks here means you don’t always show what you feel or what you think to everybody. Fake smiles fake faces do exist. Not because you are trying to be someone else to impress the others, but it’s because you need to survive. Sure you can show the real you to the closest people you have, but maybe not to everybody. I have a thought that since we were kids, we are taught about these masks. How? From culture, public opinion, what is rude and what is not, what is appropriate and what is not. As one of my favourite quotes states : One of the things about being a grown-up is learning how to act right even when you feel wrong. ~ Sean Stewart, Perfect Circle, 2004

OKKKKK… I am being absurd here talking crap :P

Anyway, just random thoughts : have u ever imagined how will you tell your parents if you are engaged? :P

I wrote this post because I am actually worried. I am worried about how time flies so fast and things change rapidly. I am afraid. Of losing things. Of losing moments. But well, the life has to keep going right? ;)

All I can say is, let us treasure the moments we have. Do or tell people before it is too late and we’ll feel sorry. Take lessons from what happened with us or surround us. Keep them in our heart. And then we still face the life and go on :)

Anyway, here is the quote of the day for me :
“Let the wind shows me the bright side of this life, until I find my way to get over you anyway”

Take care everybody,
caocao

my bestfriends :)

my mom and Tante Esther

SO! Here we are another post :)
I have promised you in the beginning that I will introduce people surrounds me, who shared moments in my life. In this post, I’d like to start with… Catherine Dhammamita Viriya!

Hahaha! Yup you! :P Catherine Dhammamita Viriya, such a beautiful name, isn’t it? But we (and I think she as well) prefer to call her with NONNY. We were in the same school from kindergarten until high school! 14 years in the same school :D SANTA URSULA. Yea, we got bored but we survived :P

Unusual story in our friendship? We used to be rivals in the elementary school :P silly, I know. We had different groups of friends before, and as far as I remember that was the only thing that made us rivals :P but somehow CISV fixed that thing. Since we met and did activities together often, we started to become BESTFRIEND :)
I still remember we danced for school, we went to club for the first time together, we had the “conference” of square table talking about guys and life, and also stayover with her mom and other girls :D OH! And I once needed to stay at her house for almost 2 weeks, when we were facing final exams. Why? Because all members of my family got an eye illness and I couldn’t get sick for the sake of the exams! So I “moved out” and stayed at Nonny’s place. IT WAS FUN :P

Not only happy moments that we had together. She, and also her mom –Tante Esther- are also be there for me everytime I am feeling down or hopeless. When I broke up, when I feel sad of family problems, and other stuffs. Thank you :)

Well, Nonny and Tante Esther… I just want to say how thankful I am to have you in my life :) Tante Esther, you are like my own mother; thank you for your wise advices and your supports, and of course for your love.

NONNY! Oh my nothing can describe how lucky I feel to have u as my bestfriend :) I love you and surely I MISS U HERE!

Well, this post is to show that you mean a lot to me. I always pray that God will always guide and guard you :) God Bless!

She Does Too

hey, here's one of the other notes i had in my mind :)
hope you can enjoy ;)

gazing through the cloud
looking for a light
a light that shows a person white

is it the desire that drives her
or her heart is just the reason why

the room is calling
the minds are whispering
the bodies are silently screaming

she misses
she's longing for
she wants
too

have a good day friends :)
You should listen to your heart, and not the voices in your head.
~The Simpsons by Matt Groening, spoken by the character Marge Simpson

One More Day

Ola!
well, below is written something that I, myself, couldnt believe that i actually made it :P
it is actually a song. well, at first it wasnt a song, it was just a poem, but then the tunes came out in my mind! soo.. with the helps of some friends it finally became a song :) (thx to alda and faisal)

the lyric was inspired by someone that i care for.
thx for giving me the inspiration :)

so here it goes:

it's a new morning
another morning together with you
the sun is rising
and fades the red curtains

and your face glows
shining on my face
and i feel blessed
to have you here
for one more day

everytime i close my eyes
everytime i catch the dreams
i am worried
if i will have you for one more day

everytime i feel your touch
everytime i sense your gaze
i am praying
please don't take him from me


u know, people dared, people chose, people lived
so take the risk and face the life, dear friends :)

Scraps

hey hey :)
sooo... i havent posted anything since i was busy and couldnt decide what to put in the blog :P

today is sooooooooo boring for me. I had done almost nothing :P nothing to eat as well :( soo.. i spent this day browsing internet randomly for my next trip to Prague and Budapest! :P hope it will be great as my Paris trip which was wonderful :)

anyway, below is what i have been writing as one of my scraps :) anyone interested to make it as a song? or give any title to it? suggestions are welcomed :)
hope u'll enjoy :)

it was a sunny day
perfect weather hid
the whisper or cold winds
as smiles and faces
hid the tender that sneaked out

and you
the one that i think of
and you
the one that drags me
deeper and deeper

the littlest things that you do
funny faces silly speeches
make me feel breathless
and flow with you

baby can't you see
you warm me up
you fill me with joy
you make me feel safe
and you comfort me

will you ever know
i miss you
i am longing
i want you

they were happy moments
glazing winter to sparkling trips
cant stop myself
even when i am worried still
but now where did they go
wonder if i'll have a chance even for one more day

baby can't you feel
i miss you
i am waiting
i love you



enjoy your day :)

:) my first post

Hey everybody! :D
sooo... here it is my first blog. At the beginning, I didn't want to make any blog, because I don't really know what to put in it. But one day, my lovely bestfriend who i missed sooo much, NONNY, pushed me to make one. She said the reason was : "SO I CAN KEEP FOLLOWING YOUR STORY IN DEN HAAG!"

hahahaha... so here I am starting my first new blog :P
and hopefully it will encourage me to write more and share my days with you guys ;)

OK, for the first post... let me tell you how I could come out with the name of HALCYON.
It should be pronounced as hal-see-un and it is taken from Greek mythology. Halcyon can be described as a joyful, carefree, or prosperous time in the past. SOO.. basically i hope this blog will treasure my days and moments ;)

Anyway, in the Greek mythology, there's a story about HALCYON. The story tells about Alcyone, who threw herself into the sea after she heard the news that her husband was drown. Her husband's name is Ceyx. Anyway, now she is famous as one of the Goddess who is responsible for all the dreams (that flows on the sea) ;)

well, that's a short intro for my blog name :P
so now let me tell you about today...
I went to school as usual (AND NOT LATE :P), did lab and we got this presentation from a catalysts company. WOW! the guy was awesome in giving presentation ;) and so we heard about our next project which sounds like interesting yet complicated :S
i hope i get a nice group members (crossin fingers)

and today i was feeling a bit weird though. I felt like putting fake smiles at some times of this day. Well well.. but talking and hanging around with friends helped me through it ;)
Caught a movie titled MILK with Adit, Gina, and Faisal. Dont worry, I'll let you know about them one by one from the next posts ;)
OH YEA, the film is great and motivative! It is about a gay activist who struggled for gay's rights in US. It is motivative indeed. Moreover, living in the Netherlands gives me new opinion about homosexuals. We have to accept evrybody as the way they are, don't we? I hope somehow you guys in Indonesia can watch this movie as well. We have to keep ourselves be openminded, right? ;)

i think this is enough for my first post :P i still dont know what to put, but i guess by the time i'll figure it out ;)

before u close the window, check out my quote of the day:
" Beauty is power; a smile is its sword." ~Charles Reade

have a great day! :D