Time vs Moments

Ola guys! :D how’s life on your side?

My life? It has been… okay. :P I am still capable of smiling and laughing and writing my feelings out… Yes, I have some stuffs going on in my mind but I’ll figure them out ;)

So! The topic of this post is : WAKE UP! TIME FLIES!
Why I choose this topic? Well, things in my own life have been going fast lately. Once I was enjoying a day in Paris, and suddenly it has been 2 months ago! It felt like I turned 19 a week ago, while in fact I am going to enter the 20s world in about 5 months! I still can remember the departure day in the Soekarno-Hatta airport (Indonesia) in details, and without I’m realizing it I have left home for 8 months. WOW. Ok, that’s a WOW for me. I don’t know for you guys, but I feel time flies fast. And moments keep changing to be treasured.

Yesterday I had a nice quality chit-chat time with my besties, Vini and Alda. We talked about how things going on in our life and also with others’. We heard about a great news : one of our friends is engaged! :) congratulation to youuuu! :D
Well, we are so thrilled to hear that yet at the same time agazed. She’s a bit older than me, and she’s engaged already. Another WOW for me :P It feels like : HEY WAKE UP MONICA! YOU ARE ENTERING A MATURE WORLD NOW!

It’s not the “being engaged” part that surprised us(well yes, but not totally). But it was how time flies so fast. We are now dealing with more complex problems, more responsibilities, more gambling in risks. Those things ask us to be more though, rational, and also brave. Overall, we need to be more mature. We can’t hide no more behind our parents’ backs, under the bed, or just change schools to run from things going on in our lives. We need to face them.
Ok, I am not trying to look that brave, because I am not. I am still afraid and confused of how should I deal with the new things come in my path of life. But all I know is I have to try and survive. OH! And… in my opinion, “masks” will always be part of our life. Masks here means you don’t always show what you feel or what you think to everybody. Fake smiles fake faces do exist. Not because you are trying to be someone else to impress the others, but it’s because you need to survive. Sure you can show the real you to the closest people you have, but maybe not to everybody. I have a thought that since we were kids, we are taught about these masks. How? From culture, public opinion, what is rude and what is not, what is appropriate and what is not. As one of my favourite quotes states : One of the things about being a grown-up is learning how to act right even when you feel wrong. ~ Sean Stewart, Perfect Circle, 2004

OKKKKK… I am being absurd here talking crap :P

Anyway, just random thoughts : have u ever imagined how will you tell your parents if you are engaged? :P

I wrote this post because I am actually worried. I am worried about how time flies so fast and things change rapidly. I am afraid. Of losing things. Of losing moments. But well, the life has to keep going right? ;)

All I can say is, let us treasure the moments we have. Do or tell people before it is too late and we’ll feel sorry. Take lessons from what happened with us or surround us. Keep them in our heart. And then we still face the life and go on :)

Anyway, here is the quote of the day for me :
“Let the wind shows me the bright side of this life, until I find my way to get over you anyway”

Take care everybody,
caocao

my bestfriends :)

my mom and Tante Esther

SO! Here we are another post :)
I have promised you in the beginning that I will introduce people surrounds me, who shared moments in my life. In this post, I’d like to start with… Catherine Dhammamita Viriya!

Hahaha! Yup you! :P Catherine Dhammamita Viriya, such a beautiful name, isn’t it? But we (and I think she as well) prefer to call her with NONNY. We were in the same school from kindergarten until high school! 14 years in the same school :D SANTA URSULA. Yea, we got bored but we survived :P

Unusual story in our friendship? We used to be rivals in the elementary school :P silly, I know. We had different groups of friends before, and as far as I remember that was the only thing that made us rivals :P but somehow CISV fixed that thing. Since we met and did activities together often, we started to become BESTFRIEND :)
I still remember we danced for school, we went to club for the first time together, we had the “conference” of square table talking about guys and life, and also stayover with her mom and other girls :D OH! And I once needed to stay at her house for almost 2 weeks, when we were facing final exams. Why? Because all members of my family got an eye illness and I couldn’t get sick for the sake of the exams! So I “moved out” and stayed at Nonny’s place. IT WAS FUN :P

Not only happy moments that we had together. She, and also her mom –Tante Esther- are also be there for me everytime I am feeling down or hopeless. When I broke up, when I feel sad of family problems, and other stuffs. Thank you :)

Well, Nonny and Tante Esther… I just want to say how thankful I am to have you in my life :) Tante Esther, you are like my own mother; thank you for your wise advices and your supports, and of course for your love.

NONNY! Oh my nothing can describe how lucky I feel to have u as my bestfriend :) I love you and surely I MISS U HERE!

Well, this post is to show that you mean a lot to me. I always pray that God will always guide and guard you :) God Bless!

She Does Too

hey, here's one of the other notes i had in my mind :)
hope you can enjoy ;)

gazing through the cloud
looking for a light
a light that shows a person white

is it the desire that drives her
or her heart is just the reason why

the room is calling
the minds are whispering
the bodies are silently screaming

she misses
she's longing for
she wants
too

have a good day friends :)
You should listen to your heart, and not the voices in your head.
~The Simpsons by Matt Groening, spoken by the character Marge Simpson

One More Day

Ola!
well, below is written something that I, myself, couldnt believe that i actually made it :P
it is actually a song. well, at first it wasnt a song, it was just a poem, but then the tunes came out in my mind! soo.. with the helps of some friends it finally became a song :) (thx to alda and faisal)

the lyric was inspired by someone that i care for.
thx for giving me the inspiration :)

so here it goes:

it's a new morning
another morning together with you
the sun is rising
and fades the red curtains

and your face glows
shining on my face
and i feel blessed
to have you here
for one more day

everytime i close my eyes
everytime i catch the dreams
i am worried
if i will have you for one more day

everytime i feel your touch
everytime i sense your gaze
i am praying
please don't take him from me


u know, people dared, people chose, people lived
so take the risk and face the life, dear friends :)

Scraps

hey hey :)
sooo... i havent posted anything since i was busy and couldnt decide what to put in the blog :P

today is sooooooooo boring for me. I had done almost nothing :P nothing to eat as well :( soo.. i spent this day browsing internet randomly for my next trip to Prague and Budapest! :P hope it will be great as my Paris trip which was wonderful :)

anyway, below is what i have been writing as one of my scraps :) anyone interested to make it as a song? or give any title to it? suggestions are welcomed :)
hope u'll enjoy :)

it was a sunny day
perfect weather hid
the whisper or cold winds
as smiles and faces
hid the tender that sneaked out

and you
the one that i think of
and you
the one that drags me
deeper and deeper

the littlest things that you do
funny faces silly speeches
make me feel breathless
and flow with you

baby can't you see
you warm me up
you fill me with joy
you make me feel safe
and you comfort me

will you ever know
i miss you
i am longing
i want you

they were happy moments
glazing winter to sparkling trips
cant stop myself
even when i am worried still
but now where did they go
wonder if i'll have a chance even for one more day

baby can't you feel
i miss you
i am waiting
i love you



enjoy your day :)